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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
In my dreams a storm is coming. My back is against a wall, except it's not really a wall, it's a person whose face I wont forget. Whose smile I remember, whose warmth came and never left in real life, in dreams….and in my reality she was the wall to my back, the peace to my turmoil, the whispered comfort in frightening dark. The problem with having a wall to your back is that you get used to it and if, when the wall crumbles you might be left trying to stand on your own again.
God often digs wells of joy with the spade of sorrow.When all is said and done, God, I pray that you remember your child Venetia. When You scan down from heaven above, I pray that my heart stands out. No longer my will but Yours. Above all, it's not what I've done or what I can do - but who You are. Your grace. Your character. Your unconditional love. Your comfort. Your divine healing.
I pray that it will be what I hold on to.
Posted at 07:50 am by addictive_bliss
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
What do you get when you squeeze an orange?

Orange juice, of course!
Essentially, that is not the only correct answer.
In fact, I believe the answer is not just “orange juice”, but also “what is inside”.
When an orange is squeezed beyond its limits and juiced against a
plastic juicer, all of its juicy glory will inevitably splurt out. It
cannot come up with apple juice, kiwi juice, or banana – it is orange,
and so orange juice comes out of it.
Likewise, people are also ’squeezed’. We are tested and trialed, and
we are hurled into different scenarios and vastly different trying
circumstances all the time. In those moments when we land straight into
a juicer and it begins squeezing the life out of us, our response is
determined by what is inside of us. When people are at their most
vulnerable, that is when others can see where their reliance and
strength comes from. That is when character will shine through.
Let me say that again.
At our driest and toughest moment, what is inside of us will be squeezed out of us.
That is the moment that no amount of faking will be able to mask what is really within us.
Posted at 07:36 am by addictive_bliss
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Wednesday, September 09, 2009
I was studying and listening to my iPod when this song came up, and a whole flood of memories came racing back! You know, one of those songs you listen to and it reminds you of a certain moment in time? This song was mine and C's theme song for a couple of years. This was probably when we were 14, and it still really does put a big smile on my face. Jamming, sneaking out, parent angst and a lot more crazy experimental stuff. So this song/post goes out to those who fumbled through the great mystery of teenage-hood with me! We're more or less closing in on the end of our teenage years. (Yes, sometimes I wake up, I still feel 18) but I'm so glad we got through it together :) You, you, you, you, and so many others more I can't really think of at the moment!
Over last weekend, the usual suspects meet up with (Dr.) Stanley now that he was back for good. 5 years seemed to flew by and now, he, standing right before us, looked exactly the same. Im serious, no signs of aging whatsoever. I forgot to ask his beauty secrets (if any).


Dinnering at Hot Pot Culture, lets just say I would never go back for a second meal. Just because it was rather expensive and the variety of food fell short of expectations. Say comparing with Seoul Garden, they only had half the variety. Nevertheless, its always the company that counts.
We ended up at one of the joints at Clark Quay. It was a night etched in one of my memory closet, I suppose would be fond memories of my first few years into adulthood.

Mine really just tasted like orange juice, Im not even sure what's this the guys ordered. Was it suppose to have alcohol rush effects? Still, Im glad mine tasted mild as I declined drinking the entire night due to recovery from stomach flu. It was pretty much after this the wild night hit us.     

This sums it up. The classic picture of Stan doing his impersonation of M.J. I absolutely loved how he danced to 'Beat It'. This has got to be the song I will remember, even in the next decade, of this night. I might even blog about it, saying the same things I said earlier, us fumbling through adulthood. Not forgetting the SDS (Super duper slut) we saw at the club, this ang mo flirting around, touching girls and touching his own nipples. Kid you not. Le sigh. I slowly understand now, why I dont frequent dance floors and choose to chill out at a nice bar with the man.
Anyway, you guys rock my world. I chose to write this up on this date for it's obvious reasons. Call me superstitious or whatever, but I do believe it holds a significant meaning. Oh, and once again, Happy Birthday Lippy !!!
Posted at 11:05 pm by addictive_bliss
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Sunday, September 06, 2009
Today, I was thinking about Sim Shen. I was thinking about the last few months she was in sunny island, I was thinking about some of the stuff we did, some of the stories we told and some of the silly nothings we did.
And our last movie that we watched together = Up. Even though I've watch it with the man, I didnt mind watching it again.

The initial part when Carl and Ellie grew old together reduced me to tears within 10 minutes into the movie, twice.
And then the part where Carl was thinking of his passed on beloved, made me cry again. (Urgh, soft.)I had a really rough week. I find that more than half a year later, I'm still learning to juggle self-care, university workload and working times. However, according to Miley Cyrus, it's not about what's on the other side or how long I'm going to take – but the process, the climb. Sigh, Miley – you're so wise. Whoever thought it would be useful to combine Research and Health Law and ethics into one semester is to be greatly frowned upon. Kobe beef is really, really good. It is the reason I will never be a vegetarian. This city challenges me, frustrates me and makes me laugh sometimes — but it no longer fills me with fear. It is no longer an unknown entity.
Posted at 09:25 am by addictive_bliss
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Friday, September 04, 2009
Live life so completely that when death comes to you like a thief in the night, there will be nothing left for him to steal.
Posted at 10:08 pm by addictive_bliss
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Monday, August 31, 2009
We are all separated by thousands of things that define us who we are.
But also remember this one simple fact - that behind every flaw and difference, we are all only human, bound to leave as how we came: empty, worthless and naked.
Posted at 09:44 pm by addictive_bliss
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Monday, August 24, 2009
I hate today's weather. It's so ugh hot and I thought by making my way to work, the air conditioning can snap me back to sanity. I was wrong. Every other relative seemed to be bringing the definition of bitch to new (higher) levels. It's really something I don't get.
The number of times the general public actually saying "Thanks" to us, for whatever the reasonable reason may be, like saving your loved one's life, or cleaning him up after he soiled himself, is once in a gawddamn blue moon. But the aggressive yelling and ridiculous uncouth manners always amounts to countless times.
After much ranting to SL, she commented :'It is impossible to match up. She wins all the time. Must have started practising when she was a toddler playing with her sisters.'
"Haha.. Sure, looks like I've got to match up. Outwit, outsmart and outBITCH her!"
Yeah, so the general public were on the annoying side today, but I have no intention of killing any one.
Not after I thought about my weekend. Starting off with eating 'siew yuk' (roasted pork) with the man. All that juicy chewy fat meat spraying its lard like liquid around your tongue makes me happy. "Straight to the arteries!" I always say.
Then pretermitting the usual annoyance of biased reporting, veiled insights, half truths and all lies, I have found a new reason to not read our local newspapers ever again. Call it a phobia if you may.
No, it's not because they discontinued my favourite comic strip.
Coming home to the man, who sang 蔡琴 - 不了情 to me. Well not really singing. Just him mouthing lyrics in an exaggerated way, accompanied with actions of feelings and appreciation, also in the pretense of playing the piano of that classic piece of music. He surely knows ways to make me smile.
Lastly, spending some tea time with Roxy. Almost 3 hours of non-stop chit chat/gossip/rants, and hello, Roxy + Fairy = NOISE, so the whole mall was reverberating with our voices, I think. *shy*
 TCC
 The girl with a starry bow ribbon

 My all time favourite Azuki Coffee with fragrant red beans
 Prawn something with mayo that will add to my flabby arms
 Spicy chicken wings with a little hint of curry powder
 Seafood pasta. The scallops were huge, soft and sweet.
Posted at 09:43 pm by addictive_bliss
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
I woke up this morning with a recollection of a past death refusing to part ways with the thought bubbles brewing in my head.
做為前線,這他媽的豬流感真的把我嚇壞了。
So I embraced it. When you're face to face with death, nothing matters more than life.
Posted at 12:11 pm by addictive_bliss
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I actually had to secure my dinner date with Dar almost a week ahead. But it was all worth it.
Funny how certain things used to matter so much, but with the passage of time, it appears to you like it doesn't mean so much.
I guess this is one of the side effects of work, it takes up so much time and energy, that to make the most out of the 24 hours, one has to kick out clutter from the mind, to free things up, to embrace new challenges and new people, while holding on to those who really matter. 
Lucky for us, despite only meeting on important occasions and other rare events, we still bond like the good old days. In fact, we shared so much history, I'm beginning to miss him more and more these days.

 Happy birthday Big Boy. There's no other way I would want our friendship to be like. Thank you for your sincerity and your genuine trades of being a great friend.

Love,
Posted at 09:36 am by addictive_bliss
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Sunday, August 16, 2009
It's so easy to smile, you just stretch a few muscles. It's so much harder to mean it. So much harder to laugh and smile and joke when your heart is aching. The scariest feeling in the world is feeling as if you're making the same mistakes again and again. Knowing you should flee from danger yet lingering on because you don't have the heart to.
And with a sinking heart I realise that this territory? I've been here before. I know it all too well.
Posted at 10:12 pm by addictive_bliss
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tell Me im preTTy and sign my
.. barenaked chest.
Show me your HERESY and id show you mine
i had this for a week
lurve it to da max
What feeds my soul
Adrian
AiAi
Alvin
Charmaine
CherShiong
ChianEe
Debbie
Evon
Evon's Pretty Creations
Joanne
Langdon
Mel Sinn
Noreen
Priscilla
Roxanne
Shirlaine
Su rong
WeiXun
Wenda
I Flutter by
Happy Tree Friends
Malaysia Travel Guide
Victoria Secret
Woodlands EFC
ADORE ME
Name: Venetia
Country: Malaysia
State: Johor
Birthday: 4/14/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: awkward situations, b-boying, being asian., dance, dance 2xs, hip hop, indie rock, inspiration, music, rhythmic gymnastics, sunflowers stilettoes and diamonds,
AIM: beepbeepSoSexual
AIM: ifyoulikethebeat
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